Updates about nothingness

Few days ago I had a hope that all those things will come to a happy end finally. Yes - I was happy on Monday. I was told that in few days all my applications will have a decision. So there came Thursday and today - I went to check things out and guess what? I just adore bureaucracy. As I am in public library now with quite slow internet at the moment and I need to check few things from the web still, I need to leave you, readers without details now, but I will do it later.

• Another funny thing is about police here. They stopped the investigation about my crime case with the next reason. I quote: "I have also called your supervisors but got no reply" Well - that is a real reason, on might say. In Estonia - there the crimes are defined by three levels depending of its seriousness to person. First degree crimes are crimes, where people get hurt (or killed, if their really unlucky). So it is quite hilarious, that police would stop the investigation of the first degree crime case only because key witnesses do not answer the phone. Especially when calls made are done under Private Number at the work time, when many working people cannot answer their personal phones and after seeing no number, they cannot even call back. Hilarious because I gave to police not only the phone numbers, but also the names, addresses and working place, that is literally two miles from local constabulary. And the police has cars. I know it - I've seen cars in police colors on streets.

Anyway - while disappointed in some things, I still haven't gave up my plans and I am still battling towards my goals: always looking for new contacts, new possibilities. Though it's getting harder and harder every day, I still find good people with a will to help me to find the means that would really start work to benefit us all.

Yes - life's hard currently, but I know it will get better. It cannot go any worse, anyway, so the only way is up.

• And finally about the national character or about language habits - I do not know exactly. Anyway, I do not find it troubling for me; I think it's another funny thing for me.

I got the message from the landlord today: "Hey! How are you feeling? Can you make (one little thing to help)?"

So I thought that I answer as I usually answer - that is how I really think, honestly: "Honestly - I am feeling totally down, but I can get you the (thing asked), when I get home."

Then came the answer: "Great Thanks"

WHAT THE HELL?! I was telling that I am feeling awful, and the answer comes like this. That is why I personally NEVER ask, how anybody is feeling or going or doing, if I am not really interested. Just because if I ask it and I got the negative answer, I feel kind of committed to help the person. And if someone answers me that thing are going really bad, I NEVER answer them that it's great. I feel sorry and if I cannot help, I at least try to comfort the person with words.

I understand that it's common politeness here in English speaking country to ask those kind of question, but I guess people have to be ready to hear the honest answers, too. Instead of it - my experiences show that people just ignore and make the face they didn't hear the answer. (It's like Death and some other characters in Terry Pratchett Discworld series - people actually can see them, but they choose not to see them because it's not a pleasant option for them.)

Though British people are considered as very polite people, and what they mostly are in my point of view, too, that part of their (and Americans too, of course) behaviour is extremely rude, non-polite. I know it's hard to come out of habits, but sometimes one has to.

So please - do not ask questions, if you are not interested in hearing the honest answers. And if you ask, reaction is usually waited accordingly.