My dearest Katariina have told me past few years that maybe it's my nickname W. Hocares that have breaked me down on achieving some better results in my life. Not that I have used W. Hocares only for writing, I also used it in public to trying to get some personal projects.
She was right all the time. I just refused to believe it. How wrong of me?!
Several days ago I was writing some overviews about my business plans, I've came up here in United Kingdom during my desperate times. And in there I used the term "mavericks". So in my keyword explanation I tried to open that meaning for me. Here is what I wrote:
"Mavericks - After seeing "Top Gun" movie in 1987, Maverick became my nickname for some following years. Although I got to know the real meaning of that word only in 2004 (I always thought it was just the name), the meaning of it had carried me through all these years.
Unconventional people are often those who are able to carry out big changes."
And when I had written it all down, I looked again my calculations and plans, I started to think more about it.
I have been using W. Hocares, since I abandoned name Maverick. W. Hocares seemed more adult for me, more clever... Even the meaning of it - surely you English-speaking people have figured out the play of words there - who cares :)
At first it was thought as a way to describe my style of writing - I didn't care the political correctness or my texts' effect on people as long as I believed what I wrote and as long as I believed it was just. But as years passed, W. Hocares came out from creative writing and brought it's influence to my every day life. And the things didn't work out so well anymore.
In real life you have to care, if you want to be successful.
So - after this night of thinking I decided to put W. Hocares back where he belongs - to writing and only there. Now more W. Hocares in my real life.
Instead of it I call back the Maverick from the times, when I was young, invincible and successful in accomplishing seemingly impossible goals. I really need Maverick's invulnerable goal orientation and will to everything as good as possible.
It was few days back.
Today - forcing myself to believe in my old self - I already accomplished something, that may help me to move one. Something, that has been impossible last six weeks. Something that was impossible when I tried to do everything in an UK ways, but what worked in two days after I used Maverick's approach.
So - after all - there is hope for me again:)
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And it is my son Oskar's 1,5 years birthday today. Not having the ability to gift him a Ferrari, or at least the Jaguar, I tried to use my skills to make him something else.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY LITTLE OSKAR!!!
PS As I didn't have my laptop with his pictures, I had to use the only pic I had of him - picture from my Estonian bank card.
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